may day..

its May day today.. it shld be a day of rest. and.. of cos piggy me laze thru out the whole day. But i had a reason for it.
i woke up realy early(earlier den i shld).. the min my eyes open .. i had to help mommy prepare all the food to be cooked for my grandma's death anni. We were racing against time.. tired man.. i neva met my grandma before come to think of it.. i onli wished i'll be able too. my dad says she is realy a sweet n loving mother. Mayb its true that good pple die early. heehee.
After that was all the household chores... my mommy had to leave every thing on MAY DAY to be done! We vacuumed the place.. Mopped the place .. changed our bedsheets and all... *phew*
that was all in half a day. the weather was making it even more difficult for me! i was so beat . i fell asleep straight after lunch.. *pig face*
so now.. i reali shld get started with work .. but sigh.. me jus had a tok wif siongster. he says i treat him worse den he treats me. and i am giving him alot of stress.. with all the work that he has and he has not enuff slp and all..
me demand a demanding gf???? i neva knew that!
i tried to gif him all the time he can. but he always has everyother thing to attend too or he cant complete. wateva the case is ..
mayb i am jus not cut out to have a working boyfren cos i am not serious enuff to tok serious stuff.. come on. afterall i am 21. i am still living a hell of a life! y do i always haf to go thru such stuff all my life. i am force to take up all responsibilities at home.. and if i dont fulfill it, i am under alot of stress too. if my sis dont perform i am blamed. if certain things are not done or not in order i get it. i haf sch but i cnt realy concentrate in it(sux big time).. i have a job .. i am which i am still quite new and tryin very hard to do well. now this r/s is demanding me to get real and face all the ups and downs of it. face all the serious talks to maintain it.
i wana sit back and jus haf fun..and be myself.. i dont wana face all these stoopid "facts of life" . i am sick n tired of it. so much for may day!