all mouldy

i am so so so so so so so so so freakin bored!!!!!
i shld be happy that i am no longer working full time at estee.. but but but
i kinda miss working.. its onli the 1st day and i feel so aimless and i have practically nothing to do.
i am jus rotting the days away.. yikes! this is killing me...
i cant go out to shop cos i am broke. i cant step out of the hse cos i am broke. wat am i to do?!?!
*sigh*
weird isnt it.. jus a few days i am complainin i am tired of work n now i am missing it..
melsie is still workin.. so she cant pei me.. melody is having a hell of a time in hokkaido. jus tok to her. she is have so much fun there! and she actually went for the Hot spring NUDE!
hahahahha.. she is changed woman there man.

at the rate i am gng .. i am gonna fall into depression.. duno y but being aimless wif nothing to do is not doin me any good. i feel as though life is meaningless with nothing to look forward to. i dont even know wat i want at this point in time. i feel like giving up everything i have and start over again but i noe its not possible.. y do i feel so helpless... y must i be in such a situation. shld i pile my days with work again? or shld i try n find things to do to occupy myself.. DAMN

:: i feel helpless ::