a sudden fear overwhelmed me at the moment..
feel lost too..
the courage i have to pull together to face all these shit and fix my life.
i am such a disaster. huisy is realy not like that before.
i cant figure out what realy went wrong and wat happened.
i have lost it.. lost everything.. soon i am going to lose even more if i continue being like that.
in a spur of the moment, i wana let go of so many things dear to me. but i just cnt bear too.
i am afraid to face this alone. but no one else can be there for me.