+ job security fulfilled+

things are looking good so far for my application to HSBC.. i hope by next week i will receive my letter of offer.
Now that i might alr have a job.. i am not so worried anymore. more worried abt how will i do there.
anyway.. that aside cos there are more immediate matters to attend to.
all the term papers!! gonna be due soon!! yikes! i am feeling the pressure.. i hope it will all be over soon.
after i cleared all my papers, i'll go for my retreat. lock myself at home and study and study ans study. if not i wnt have the chance to study anymore after i graduate.. hahaha..
After my exams for this semester. there will be even more exams coming. sigh .. they are never ending ...

although things are looking good for me at home, in school, work and relationship..
I am not contented. cos i fear that i will lose the balance.
i am afraid that something might go wrong and i will not be happy for long..
it will do me good if i can jus shut up and not thing abt it.

:: i feel unstable ::