*a thousand things to think abt*

its not that i am too free with nothing to do.. but some things jus cant get out of ur head..
u jus keep thinking about it.. i do not dare to share with anybody cos i know they will all say i am thinking too much.
But it sure worries me..
i cant help it but still feel very insecure.. i still feel very upset. i keep thinking abt it..
yet i cnt say it...
i dnt wana be controlling.. i dnt wana add on to ur worries.
I wana have trust in you completely too. but i wonder y am i worrying..
maybe cos i have no confidence in myself.. maybe cos too many other things that have been happening ard me
i dnt wana kick a big fuss abt it and make both of us upset too.. But i realy wish i cld tell u how i realy feel.
It sux to see myself so vulnerable.. it sux to know that i am so bothered.
but when something or someone that u hold so dear to ur heart. everything abt it matters a great deal.
i can only bear with and face it.. till the day when it slowly fades away.
I losing it.. losing everything.

:: i feel disheartened ::