Am i such a failure?
Why am i labeled as such... Why must i described in such a manner?
Have i let u down so badly? I am not perfect but i am trying my best.
Why cnt u see it or feel it?
It hurts so badly yet i cant say it.. to me those words are violently abusing..
What have i not done right? Do i realy have to give up everything i have to make you happy?
Do i realy have to dedicated every part of my life to den u will be satisfied?
I dnt have a stand of my own anymore. everything i do everything decision i make. I have you in my mind but seems like its not wat you want.
You said its always abt wat i want. Isnt it the case for you too??
y are both of us always back at square one and not making any progress? When will i eva have your support and blessing.
I need you jus as much as u need me. I loved you with all heart all these time.
Please dnt let things be this way. It hurts so badly jus to even think about it.
Do you know how much this has been affecting me? You have ur support and outlet to vent ur unhappiness. while i have none.
I have to go thru every day like that alone and i hate it.
I hate it that i have to go thru this. I hate it that i am so devasted. I hate it that nothing i have done so far is helping. I hate it that i cant make you love me more and more everyday. i hate it that i have failed you.
I hate MY SELF. now i wish i have neva existed in ur life and i have neva existed in this world.