+ back to square one again +

to say everything is ok will be lying to myself.
its not ok.. i still feel the emptiness in me..
i still feel all the insecurities and fear that every girl will feel once in awhile.
i wana overcome it so badly.. the things I feel, the things I experience are so intense.
I wish i could put it in words and tell someone about it. But its so difficult for me.....
I wish someone will hear my plea to pull me out of this shit cos i no longer can do it myself.
I have lost all confidence in huisy.. its not onli affecting me alone and its affecting others ard me.
I am wat pple will call a hazard now.