+ dress down friday +

its dress down friday.. but work was not slack for me .. somehow its very draining..
totally not a good day for me AT ALL.. with the results out and all.
really down today.. everything is ok if i have work to do and pple ard me. But once i am alone.. it starts bothering me.
Somehow, i feel neglected and abandoned. No one will understand wat i am gng thru. pple say gng home will be the best place to be but sadly its not the case for me cos i feel double the pressure.
pple gng on and on abt wat they are gng thru.. how bad their situation is. sometimes i think to myself i rather switch places with you if i cld. But OH WELL...
Sometimes when u feel pple closest to u and u wana tell them u are not feeling too gd but u duno how go abt saying it.
Huisy dnt wana be always feeling down.. Huisy wants to get herself out of this too. but it keeps coming back to haunt me. sometimes although i tell myself not to expect anything at all but yet i still do subconsciously. And when u expect u get disappointment and when u get disappointment u jus feel neglected. i am too tired i dnt noe wat to think anymore. I hate waking up in the middle of the nite frm my slps and not being able to fall back aslp again. I hate waking up in the wee hrs of the morning feeling horrible. I hate having those eery dreams abt the weirdest things. FUCK. i hate it when i am in this mode.

:: i feel abandoned ::