+ by the riverside +

The riverside behind zouk realy is a special place for me..
its where all the emotional break downs happen and also happy moments too.
i love that place.. its has alot of good and bad memories but they all mean alot to me.
and will always be remembered in my heart.
its so unforgettable.
proly cos me have been very down lately. so every small little thing amounts to my "depression".
after the major breakdown last nite. i realise i shld not make myself feel so miserable.
life is short. enjoy it while u can.
leave it all to destiny and fate. If its meant to be.. it will be.
If its not meant to be.. life still goes on for Hui no matter how difficult it may be.
The world will not stop revolving for you.
There i was engulfed in misery while others are out there living a gd life without me. They will still continue to lead their life to the fullest leaving me behind if i continue being like that.
Onli i can pull myself out of it.
Who cares if i am all alone. i can fend for myself.
Who cares if i am going through a rough patch. i can pull myself out of it.
Who cares if i will someday be alone. i can be independent.
i have to be brave for my family. i have to be brave for grandpa.
i have to be brave for myself. i have to be brave for the one i love.
For my happiness, i have to pull myself together.
No more telling myself i cnt take it anymore.
No more telling myself i have to do more cos i have done my best.
No more depending on others all the time.
i have to learn to be independent. and also happily independent.
i have to learn how to treasure myself more. there is onli so much i can do.
Let the future unfold itself.
Lookin forward to the next happy trip to the riverside. :)

:: i am back on my feet again ::