+ it has worn me out over the years +

decided to read thru the archives of my blog one fine day and realise.. OMG..
My life so happening ar.. my post were very emotional and i penned things that i neva thought i was capable of.
WOW.. wateva happen to me??? i have become so dull over a short span of 2 yrs. KOAZ.
i was able to express how i felt or if i felt strongly abt something i do not have the fear of blogging abt it..
Now... i am jus too lazy and there is nothing worth blogging abt. in the past.. i use to blog over every little thing.. i was so free sia.

feelings i feet so strongly now.. y am i so afraid to say it?
is it cos i feel it shldn bother me so much? or i am afraid i appear vulnerable?
or as ppl grow older there are impt things to care abt other den urself.
its true i use to be more emotional. but now i able to handle my emotions better.
but a part of me misses how i used to be....
Jus cry when i feel sad. jus roar when i am pissed.
Jus throw a tantrum when i am fustrated. Now i am totally not capable of that.
well at least i still have a blog to remind me of it. =)

:: i feel puzzled ::