the moment we all miss

we had a perfect cheapskate girls nite out that day. Me met nai n bim for brekkie and headed to jess hse. I WAS SUPPOSE TO STUDY.. but those 2 girlies are jus such a huge distraction. me was dying to catch up wif them and of cos they are great beauties. of cos we had lottsa gossips not gng to say them here cos they are secrets!! *bleh*
ALL the photos are with jess so .. if u happen to be interested.. pls see jess blog when she updates them. anyway .... we had a bbq! i need to remember this outing. it was an outing that brought be back together with them. i am so so so happy. i miss all of them! i miss nai's rabbits too! hahahaa
lurve ya all!!!!!!

a new blog a new start!

this fabulous cool new blogskin is done by bestie bimbs... she is the one wif me in the photo!! *kudos to jess*
there are unfinished parts but i am too lazy to care. i haf a blog for the sake of having it. HAH!

a new blog a new start!

low morale

today was my first paper.. COSMETICS AND PERFUMES (PR2202)
sounds fun rite??? but i tell u its like SHIT. They ask the stupidest qns.. this is wat i got for my essay qns.. Compare and contrast cosmetics in the Elizabethran erz and today.
FUCK! How was i suppose to knoe... its cosmetics and perfume not history and cosmetics!! SUX BIG TIME MAN..
i am so looking forward to meeting my besties tmr for a day of relaxation cum studyin!
Exams have dampen my spirits for everything.. i dont even care that my blog is ugly and boring.. its totaly like my life now... dark without the rainbow part. hahaha.. It has nothing exciting.. boring posts with tons of complains and no photos watsoever..
how boring can i get?

time is passin eva so slowly

ARGH................. i need to get out of the hell hole!

The 1st paper is on fri and the last paper is on 5 OF MAY!! SO DARN LONG!!! den me, mel n bong will pack our bags and off to clubmed!!! YIPPEE!!!!
i keep gettin distracted from studying.. dreaming and waiting for the exams to be over!

me got to start mugging again.. ciaoz~

thats wat i call a satisfying meal

me had dinner wif jess aka bimbs today! the food was good .. the ambience was good.. the company was...............FABULOUS! It feels as though exams are non-existent!
it was all good till... someone intrude into our girls tok. jess is finishin here exams tmr!! YAY (for her) but sighs for me.hahahha. jess.. u had beta brew tonics for me to bu bu my brain ok!

tmr is back to study study study.. i tell u some selfish pig is jus duno wats care n share. i shall protect her privacy since i am a nice ger. i tell u .. KHARMA is for real! i am so for it. i shall be so darn nice to all my family and frens from now onwards!

estee's target are darn HIGH

i just got my PAY!! yipee!!! i can go shoppin!! aahahhaha.. i noe i shld realy start saving..
working today is so stressful! my sales target is so darn high! and i cant even hit half of it! *pissed*
i dont need an additional stress coming from work now! its not the time... FUCK.

i stumbled and fell.. but i learn how to stand again

me jus came back from acid BAR!! i needed a break from the studying man.. thou i didn accomplish much! hahahahahahahaha..
i had a heartwarming tok wif my long lost bestie, and she made me feel that there is still hope n love in the world! it helped me realise about reality better.. its not all harsh. u jus haf to embrace the things that u treasure most! thanks sweetie. i feel much better jus that i still owe a "I'm sorry" to another bestie. I hope she knows how i feel too... sigh..
today me ahd a gr8 fun wif siongster, mel n bao ge and some churchmates! we were like playing all the stupid drinking games and childhood games. toking abt reviving old times! nostalgia... ahahhahaha...
*cheers* to all my besties! U all are the ones that has come to my rescue!

i will pull myself 2gether

i feel alone but i shall be independent
i feel weak but i shall pull myself together
i feel angry but i shall not let it conquer me
i shall not let my fustrations n unhappiness swallow me..
i know i can do this.. i know i can.

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seeing all the happy pple ard me .. jus make me feel worse.

the ugly side of me

i feel so so so so horrible.. and not knowing where its coming from and totally clueless in what i shld do.
I am upset, moody, at times felt so lonely..
Everything in life seems like hell ..despite me tryin so hard to paint a rosy picture.
I hate to look at myself and the state that i am in.. I try to occupy myself every minute to keep me from thinking things. I try so hard to be a realy cheerful n happy ger. I hate this. Its so difficult to be happy infront of pple all the time. I wanna be me and let them see.. I am not as happy as i look.
In fact, i am all alone. I am tired of being tolerant. I just wane be a brat and throw all my anger n fustrations around. I beg to be normal.