+ new domain +

u noe how sometimes u jus read abt ur weekly zodiac and somehow its jus so true...
mine says that my insecurities i feel is not doin any good to my career or relationship. i shld pull myself together have confidence in myself and start planning for my future.
*BINGO* it realy got me thinking.. y shld i even make myself so miserable. i have done nothing to deserve this. i DESERVE much beta den this.
i dont need someone to take care of me .. i can learn how to stand on my own feet. Why shld i leave my happiness in someone else's hands? Why shld i let someone else to dictate how i feel?
i have decided to let it go adn not be so harsh on myself.

:: i feel determined ::

+ losing my focus +

i am FRIGGIN distracted. URGH......
fucking pissed with myself. i dnt tink i can continue like that.
i dnt tink i can do this.
will i eva have the courage to put a stop to everything. FUCK.

+ a sunny morning +

its a beautiful morning.. took a walk and now as my kettle is put to boil..
i shall make a short post before i have my daily dose of aromatic coffee...

it will be a lonely sunday today with jus me and my books.
sigh.. have a sudden urge to wana be alone. ensconced in a corner without getting any attention at all.
have a place that belongs to me and me alone. have the freedom to do whatever i wan without considering how pple will feel. have time to be at peace with myself. i am beginning to think that there is no one else u can count on in this world but urself. everyone is jus puttin a front even the ones that u love most. i wonder if i will eva have complete faith in someone. i thot i eva did but somehow.....

:: i feel mystified ::

+ rainy day +

its a rainy day.. i have a love hate relationship with such days..
the weather is cool but the atmosphere is gloomy.
come on huisy.. you will do jus fine.
stop thinking anymore dammit.

P/S: i GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE... i shall not let myself caught in situations where i have to travel for more den an hr within singapore (unless realy necessary) or where i have to take public transport (not even cab) during peak hrs.
i hate it when i have to squeeze on the bus or i have to travel for over an hr! it pisses the hell out of me and it gives me realy bad headaches. *blah*

:: i feel moody ::

+ obesity +

I AM FAT GOING OBESE!

*SHUCKS*