+ a sudden storm +

i jus survived another "stormy" nite.. its hilarious actually..
i was worried .. den i got upset.. den i got devastated.. over wat u may ask..
I ALSO DUNO! hahahahhaa..
both of us got worked up and actually when i realy thot abt it.. it shldn even have happened.
well.. its jus silly hui stirring trouble again. maybe once a while a woman has her "itchy" self that jus wana get something out of nothing and unfortunately.. this time. it backed fired.
its a good thing my man is able to take such shit from me. weird analogy so i shall not continue.
i certainly hope that i am having my PMS.. hahaha..
Thanks hon for trying so hard. i noe its hasn been going well on ur side. looking forward to seeing u again next week. have a good weekend urself. *mucks*



:: i feel restless ::

+how gaming is so addictive+

he cant be bothered with me doing up his hair as he is obviously too engrossed in his games.

me cnt get his attention so i happily entertained myself.

top view..

*bleh* thats for ignoring me while u game..

+updates+

few days back... manage to drag the pig out of the house.. and we went to Club 21 sale. in search of good bargains for myself and penny.. in the end.. penny walked out of the sale with a Ck tie @ $10 for Kenny. i walked out empty handed and the pig (haro) walked out with a realy cool armani jeans @ $120and a Ck beanie @ $20... DARN.. i was the one who was suppose to be shopping. the prices were really slashed at the sale.. dresses or blazer that were supposedly sold at $1000 are up for grabs at ard $200. Some of the stuff are still alittle too out of my budget. Bummer..

he tryin to act cool with his new beanie

next event was penny's concert. Dance Uncensored. it was hilarious the dance put up my raffles hall they had a little twist in the end. hahaha.. i was roaring with laughter. enjoyed myself in the freezing auditorium though.

me n pretty penny.

i sponsored a few accessories and jacket for her performance. so her hiphop outfit can be complete.

for once she has more makeup on then me. hahaha

there.. another time where penny has more makeup den me!

she all dolled up to attend a DnD. i was her personal makeup artist.

anyone need professional makeup done can always page me ya. haha (alittle advertisment here)

+ back in sch +

back in sch again.. rushing my biz law and power paper..

looking forward to watch penny at Dance Uncensored later.. gives me some entertainment..



mommy n daddy are plannin a trip to beautiful paradise.. Redang..

its a gorgeous place unfortunately i am counted out of the trip as i have other commitments..

*sobs*



Btw, i wana realy recommend this show .. STOMP THE YARD!!! it stars Chirs brown.. Neyo.. my Brain white *charming*.. great dance moves .. i have to say the lead actress in the show was not that fantastic.

Look out for Brain White! he is HOT HOT HOT.. *melts*

oki.. i shld be gettin back to work..

:: i feel studious ::

*a thousand things to think abt*

its not that i am too free with nothing to do.. but some things jus cant get out of ur head..
u jus keep thinking about it.. i do not dare to share with anybody cos i know they will all say i am thinking too much.
But it sure worries me..
i cant help it but still feel very insecure.. i still feel very upset. i keep thinking abt it..
yet i cnt say it...
i dnt wana be controlling.. i dnt wana add on to ur worries.
I wana have trust in you completely too. but i wonder y am i worrying..
maybe cos i have no confidence in myself.. maybe cos too many other things that have been happening ard me
i dnt wana kick a big fuss abt it and make both of us upset too.. But i realy wish i cld tell u how i realy feel.
It sux to see myself so vulnerable.. it sux to know that i am so bothered.
but when something or someone that u hold so dear to ur heart. everything abt it matters a great deal.
i can only bear with and face it.. till the day when it slowly fades away.
I losing it.. losing everything.

:: i feel disheartened ::

+ job security fulfilled+

things are looking good so far for my application to HSBC.. i hope by next week i will receive my letter of offer.
Now that i might alr have a job.. i am not so worried anymore. more worried abt how will i do there.
anyway.. that aside cos there are more immediate matters to attend to.
all the term papers!! gonna be due soon!! yikes! i am feeling the pressure.. i hope it will all be over soon.
after i cleared all my papers, i'll go for my retreat. lock myself at home and study and study ans study. if not i wnt have the chance to study anymore after i graduate.. hahaha..
After my exams for this semester. there will be even more exams coming. sigh .. they are never ending ...

although things are looking good for me at home, in school, work and relationship..
I am not contented. cos i fear that i will lose the balance.
i am afraid that something might go wrong and i will not be happy for long..
it will do me good if i can jus shut up and not thing abt it.

:: i feel unstable ::

+ a little tiff +

had a great tok with mau mau and serene over dinner.. we toked abt lots of issues that we face in reality ..
work.. sch... friends and also relationships.
we keep asking mau mau to forget abt the relationship cos they are jus not suitable..
den i ask myself.. den wat do i define as suitable. how do i noe if this person is suitable.
is it that feeling that tells u so... den can i trust that feeling?
me have been listening to so many pple and their relationships... it let me reflect on mine..
it takes both hands to clap.
is it jus wishful thinking on my part? was all i eva did useless.. or what have i done wrong.
maybe all these while.. i was on the wrong track .. maybe i need a breather..

:: i feel awaken ::

+ presenting jacob junior +

you'll neva fail to cheer me up.

someday i will bring you home.. how i wish i can have one.

+ frustration +

i truly understand wat it means by frustration..
in lay man terms
from the dictionary and
under the law....
like totally frustrated now....

nothing seems to be going right nowadays... nothing seems to be smooth nowadays
frustration seems to be a neva ending part of my life.