+ some things are beta left unsaid +

Sux not being able to jus say wat eva u want..
i always have to remind myself to THINK, THINK and THINK again before i eva say anything or aask anything.
i have mastered the art of not saying anything at all unless its impt.
Nobody is interested in ur comments. Nobody will appreciate ur feedback. Nobody realy cares how u feel. Nobody wana listen to what u are going through. What u think and how u feel.. Realy dont make a difference at all so keep it to urself.
Even if u eva said it out.. its ur own problem for u to worry abt. there is nothing anyone else could do to help u. Saying it out does help so y say it?
Slowly, i understood y my mum neva tells my dad how she realy feels sometimes. Cos some things are beta left unsaid. Den wats the point? the other person will neva know how u feel. Thats when ppl take things for granted and in this case... pple take u for granted cos u neva said how u realy felt.

:: i feel disheartened ::

+ A Birthday set in Hawaii +

Happy Birthday Shoo Mong.

I hope u had a wonderful time.

+ i deserved to be smacked +

i keep looking backwards and not focusing on what i shld be doin.
back frm Grandpa's funeral but have no mood to get cracking at work at all.
it was realy saddening. sending my grandpa off was the worse thing to do. but i told myself my pain is nothing compared to my mum, aunts and of cos grandma. I have to be there for them and no time to indulge in my own sadness.
frm there it is jus gng downhill. not able to enjoy the wonders in life. not able to make myself happy. not able to get out of my low morale.
wat the hell is wrong with me? i deserve to be whack real hard to wake myself up from this nightmare.

i miss u lots grandpa. i hope u are doin well whereever u are.

+ i love u grandpa +

I Thank God that i still have sweet memories of how much u dote on me.

I will never forget how much u have done for the family.

I will never forget how much u suffered.

I will never forget how much u loved us.

I will never forget how u always secretly brought me ice cream.

I will never forget abacus lessons with u.

I never forget our yearly Xmas gatherings together where u will always be Santa.

and for you, we will continue living life to the fullest with u in our hearts. Rest in peace Grandpa.

+ invasion of the vius +

every thing is down n out and attacked by the virus.

poor me is down with a cold. and my nose is all red and in pain due to all the friction.

my most loved lappie is down with a virus. Daddy finaly got it reformatted and its up again!

I am realy sorry for those who got the virus cos of me... it was NOT MY FAULT! heh..

On a happier note.. Went home appliances shopping with the Koh Family on Sunday and it was fruitful!

We manage to get a Plasma TeeVee and DARN GD home theatre set, a ipod video, a cordless phone and a hot flask!

I cnt wait for the teevee n home theatre system to come!! I am jus sit on the couch and watch movies all day with the powerful surround sound! hahaha

:: i feel lethargic ::