+ time of the month +

its my time of the month.. the cramps are killing me.
its dampening my mood. totally. :(

:: I FEEL PAIN ::

+ cnt wait for sat+

GUESS WAT?!!?!??!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!?!??!!
haro booked a room for us on saturday at..................... RASA SENTOSA!!!!
YIPPEEEEE!!!!!!!
its our anniversary btw and he revealed where we are gng to me last nite!
i was so excited i cldn slp! i always wanted to stay there! we have a sea view too!!
it is jus perfect and more den wat i expected. haahaa..
cos i wanted to go to the beach so much.. and now.. i will have underwater world 5 mins away frm me.. ben and jerry's nearby! HAH..
my boy always surpises me from time to time and each time it realy make me jump to sky with happiness. i lurve you!


:: i feel excited ::

+ miss scatterbrain has done it again +

i had the most embarassing moments yesterday @ Taka Coffee Club........ GOODNESS ME....
After a meal of bangers n mash and a good ice cool iced mocha vanilla.. me n haro am ready to go hunt for a bag for huisy.
As Haro kept his card he heard a sudden ......." DOOOONNNNNGGGGG!!!!"
guess wat.. hui walked right into a glass window tinking it was the exit.
ALL THE WAITERS WERE LAUGHIING AT ME! so PAI SEH!!!!!!!!!
how can i be capable of such things. my foreheard was red with a slight swell.
you could imagine the sound of it.. so LOUD CAN.
and the impact was great enuff to put me into tears. i swear neva to step into that coffee club for a year! DAMMIT.

we went to catch Fantastic 4. it was surprisingly GOOD.
Jessica Alba is still hot but her blonde hair looks fake and weird on her. But she is still pretty..
no no.. exotic beauty suits her beta.
the show was farnie and has its moments. i simply enjoy every bit of it despite gng bein in an embarassed and lousy mood.
The nite ended off at butterfactory. With lionel, chalk, vance, charmaine, doris and of cos haro too. butterfactory is such a small club and the crowd was not happening at all. onli gd thing prolly is that its not as stuffy as phuture. i saw a ger in slpin shirt, sch shorts and SLIPPERS! how the hell did they let her enter! seriously .. NO STANDARD. thats wat i call it.
but at the rate they are buying drinks there.. the bottles of chivas are enuff to keep them happy n high.
but for me .. i am happy with my lychee martini! my fave! yummilicious.
all in all.. it was a happy weekend for huisy. :P
its back to work on MONDAY! somehow.. am looking forward to work. OH NO.. the bang on the forehead has did something to me. hahahha

:: i feel delighted ::

+ huisy is a scatterbrain +

seriously.. 90% of my brains cells are not functional.
I am such a scatterbrain.
i forget to switch off the lights after use.
i forget that the tap is running.
i forget to turn off the gas.
at the rate i am gng, i will forget where is home. ahhahaha....
wat is wrong with me... prolly cos i have so many things to tink abt..
one big prob i have now is.. i cnt seem to tink of wat gifts would be gd for my love ones...
i owe so many pple pressies.. i noe i noe. bear with hui k.. it will come ( for those pple i owe pressie).
SG is jus so boring... there is nothing interesting to get for pple. even if there is.. they are WAY too pricey..
dnt forget. Hui has spending issue... so she does not have much disposable cash. sigh...
i wana go TAIWAN!!!!!!!!!! i miss that place so much... all the shopping all the food.... beautiful beautiful place. :P
ok.. huisy stop dreaming and get back to work. u have lots to do DNT FORGET...

:: i feel so blur ::

+ corporate citizen +

huisy has turned into a corporate citizen aquiring every single traits that a corporate citizen has.

(1) My tummy is growing for sitting in the office. i need help on this urgently before it gets out of hand

(2) i have an addiction.. an addiction to coffee. Back in school, one cup in the morning will last me the whole day. Now.. i need at least 3 cups!

(3) i have no life... haven been to town for ages. :( i am deprived of shopping, movies, drinking, chilling and eating.

(4) i seem be losing touch with friends. i miss my bestie. i miss my bimbos. many many more.

i seriously need to do something to spice up my life. but in the meantime, i still do love my work cos i get paid. hahahahahahaha
Enuff of crapping here.. let me get my day at work started. :P

:: i feel refreshed ::

+ got talent? +

one fine day.. i stumbled across the most adorable ger on earth.
She not jus made me cry.. she made my jaw drop.
she INSPIRED me.

she is without a doubt my inspiration and i totally felt immense admiration for her. :)
she is a MUST watch. i LURVE her! so i shall share it with everyone else.





:: i feel inspired ::

+ hurmfp +

huisy is little miss grumpy...
i am beginning to hate wearing this yellow dress.
a few hiccups happened today... i hate today!
my blog is gettin too depressing. every post is depressing.
i hate my blog.

:: i feel angry ::

+ why is it this way +

why do u have to interfere with whatever i do
why do u have so much comments that make me feel even more worse than i alr do
i am so GOD DAMN lousy.
i am so GOD DAMN terrible.
i did try to do whateva u tell me to. I did the best i can. dnt pushing me even further.
i am fucked up enuff. i have issues of my own i dnt need u to add to that.
i can neva live up to ur expectations. SO STOP IT!
STOP asking me to be what i am not. i am SICK of it.
i need a place on my own where i can call home.

+ boring tuesday +

huisy is feeling lousy again.. decided to blog cos i cnt get to slp although i am so God Damn Sleepy.

realy duno wats wrong with me.

like i jus have dramatic moods swings. one min i can be ok.. one min i can be like moody. feel like life is in a mess cos of my unstable emotions. :(

i jus cnt control them. when i have pple tok to me and when they tok abt certain topics they make me feel very uncomfortable and it will bother me for a long time. when i look at daddy, my heart aches i duno y. when i am at home, i feel like i am unwanted.

i miss my boy so much whenever i am like that. me need my dumbo. But sadly.. he is at work. Msges go unreplied. Calls go unanswered.

Dumbo shoo mong... huisy needs u.

:: i feel useless ::

+ cnt wait for that special day +

+ Special Tri +

guess what... Huisy actually participated in a triathlon! can u believe it.. i cnt myself either. haha.

It was for a good cause as u can see so how can huisy refuse. at least the burden was split.

Haro swam for 300metres. den it was me who cycled for 6km den my brother who finshed up running 2.2km.

it was blardy tiring!! in addition the fact that i only clubbed the nite b4 and onli had 1hr of slp.

it totally killed me. when i reach the slope .. i was like OKAY.. i got to get down n push my bike.

i totally dnt noe how to operate a mountain bike.. like changing the gear and all. *bleh*

tink the marshalls were like pretty amused by me cos i keep asking them if the finishing line was near. and if there is a short cut. BUT.. they all BLUFF poor huisy. they keep saying reachin reaching but like it always no where near. till i gave up asking. hahahaha...

so obviously.. after the triathlon.. me n haro K.O on the bed. but it was a nice experience. at least i have participated in a triathlon b4 and we all got a medal in rememberance. :)

:: i feel healthy ::

+ Gatsby event @ zouk +

me n penny attend the Gatsby event that day. all thanks to Daryl who gave us the invites. :)
so we didn had to spent a single cent and we had cool goody bags!
in the beginning it was jus bad.... the music was so bad. it onli became beta when we left. DARN.
wednesdays are still the best!
unfortunately, again .. hui ended leaving the club in tears...
i really wana thank Kenny n Penny for being there for me. This couple has been one of my greatest buds and supporting me all the way. i realy appreciate it.
also wana thank Daryl for ur concern.
Huisy always reveals her emotions @ the wrong time and cause everyone to worry for her.
Seeing all their concern faces.. i felt alot stronger.
i need time to get back to my normal self now...
to haro dear.. u have been tryin i noe.
prolly bcos in front of u i try not to show u my vulnerable side and i didn want to seem like i am very needy of u.
so u didn noe wat i wanted and wat i needed.
but the fact was that i did felt u jus left me there. anyway... its over. i am glad to see my haro tryin hard to make me feel beta. jus that alone is enuff.

:: i feel tired ::

+ by the riverside +

The riverside behind zouk realy is a special place for me..
its where all the emotional break downs happen and also happy moments too.
i love that place.. its has alot of good and bad memories but they all mean alot to me.
and will always be remembered in my heart.
its so unforgettable.
proly cos me have been very down lately. so every small little thing amounts to my "depression".
after the major breakdown last nite. i realise i shld not make myself feel so miserable.
life is short. enjoy it while u can.
leave it all to destiny and fate. If its meant to be.. it will be.
If its not meant to be.. life still goes on for Hui no matter how difficult it may be.
The world will not stop revolving for you.
There i was engulfed in misery while others are out there living a gd life without me. They will still continue to lead their life to the fullest leaving me behind if i continue being like that.
Onli i can pull myself out of it.
Who cares if i am all alone. i can fend for myself.
Who cares if i am going through a rough patch. i can pull myself out of it.
Who cares if i will someday be alone. i can be independent.
i have to be brave for my family. i have to be brave for grandpa.
i have to be brave for myself. i have to be brave for the one i love.
For my happiness, i have to pull myself together.
No more telling myself i cnt take it anymore.
No more telling myself i have to do more cos i have done my best.
No more depending on others all the time.
i have to learn to be independent. and also happily independent.
i have to learn how to treasure myself more. there is onli so much i can do.
Let the future unfold itself.
Lookin forward to the next happy trip to the riverside. :)

:: i am back on my feet again ::

"You fail to see the one who loves you standing right in front
as does she fail to see you love her in turn.
Don't wait to tell her, because it might be to late then."

+green with envy+

when i see pple blissful and happy.. i am envious..
when i see pple living a carefree life.. i am envious...
y cnt i be contented.

:: i feel ...... ::

so much left unsaid. i wonder wat will the future be like.