Today I had a fruitful and long talk with a close fren of mine.
once awhile a woman whine and expresses her resentment in the r/s.
at the end of the day, she is not looking for a solution to a problem. she is looking a for listening ear to hear her out and give her a push to move on again.
I was glad she gave me a chance to hear her out. hearing hw she was feeling unsure abt her r/s and having discussions abt it with her.
I challenged her uncertainies and insecurities.
I knew she loved this man, just that circumstances are not really gng their way.
After we parted, she sent me an sms: " I think you might be right. Its about finding someone who will work things out with you and there's no perfect one."
And for other women, they spent all their life looking for tt perfect one that prolly dnt exist.
hmmmmmm.....

for the special u.. i might jus be able to fall off the wall.

everything was ok jus moments ago.
however, it was all so short-lived and temporal.
it was the longest 2 hrs tt i have ever spent thru the night alone.
but after i came out of the shower. I took a deep breathe and told myself..
Enuff of all these bullshit. I've got work to do and ppl who needs me.

i am wondering and.....

things happen when u least expect it .
the more u try.. the further it slips aways from you.
mayb i shld jus leave it and wait for it to come to me.
the one who shld care .. doesn
but the ones who shldn are doin more then they shld.
this is not wat i wan!

IF distance makes the heart grow fonder,

then let it keep our hearts from wander.

Make me strong and build thyself,

fix thy faults and life my health.

Thy actions strange and not of old,

for what is meant may be foretold.

Look deeper to the fold of reason,

betwixt the mode that makes our treason.

Help me see what hurt i bear to thee,

for love and life with you i see.

Within thyself, an instrument of golf,

most dear to me, myself, you hold. 

Tis what you seek, and I of you.

Make this your heart and key to true

love and freedom from our woes of fear.

For you, my love, i hold most dear..

I am a lost sheep that has no direction anymore. 

the things i wan is running further and further.

i am trying to reach out but i realised... i am alone. 

For Sarah....

All those yeas of love and laughter 

we shared.

We never could have imagines that it would 

ever end this way.

Goodbye my dear friend.

Life's road we travelled on till journey ends.

Never knowing where it would take us or 

how it would end.

Goodbye my friend.

I know i will never see you again.

The friendship you gave through the years.

Will warm my heart and soul.

Soothe the pain.

Memories of you will remain with me in my heart

till the end. 

I will always remember the times we always say together during chinese class and wrote many poems together. 

I will always remember your occassion smses to ask me if i am doing well and your fighting spirit when things dnt go ur way.

I am sorry for all the times i have not spent more effort in asking how you are. 

I am thankful to have a friend like you. You will be dearly missed by all of us..