+ CNY +

its the CNY again... wishing myself a prosperous new yr.. i tink i need it ..

for my last sem in sch.. for me in search of a job.. tinkin of it worries me ..

so moving on..

some old updates

my family had our reunion dinner at sushi teh...i tell u SAKE is terrible.. *bleah*

i feel my throat burning..

me n little sis..

me and haro darl went to get out hair all done up and ready for CNY..

he in the martian hat again..

on Vday.. i spent it with my diva partner... Mellie..

we had our vday dinner at DIAN XIAO ER.. which was better den we expected.

but our heels were killing us and we cldn find a place to rest or thing to do..

cos everyone is in pairs... so it was not easy gettin a place in restaurants. when we finally grab a seat in Coffee Bean .. we started snapping away.

melllie was so bored and tired..

she decided to call everyone she noes and interupt their Vday celebrations.

+ words of wisdom +

a piece of advice from a very treasured friend..

Do you noe wat it means to do something properly for them?
If you know it perfectly well and you want to do it then start today!
Its going to be a new start of a year.
You can have a fresh start and be careful not to screw up or anything.

it really struck me hard and woke myself up.
I told myself that i noe perfectly well what to do and i am going to give all i have to do what is needed.
I will make sure i wont be crying to myself because i keep telling myself there is nothing i can do anymore.
I really wana thank this special friend of mine who has been there for me all these times and i have taken for granted. She knows who she is..
finally.. Thank you so much. I love you to bits! Our friendship really mean alot to me.
fel dear.. if u are reading this.. i have not forgotten about you at all! LOVE YA TOO!

:: i feel embraced once again ::

+aimless hui+

here i am dwelling in my own misfortune again..
feeling all lost and hopeless again...
seeing myself fall and not doin anything to pick myself up.
all becos i noe i will return back to square one.
but i noe i am gonna lose everything precious to me. it hurts to noe that it is happening to me.
y am i like that... i am such a disappointment.
my whole life have been nothing but disappointments.
its pretty obvious cos as i run thru the archives of my blog..
endless and endless postings that are i am absolutely not proud of and here is another to add to the collection.
its realy disgust me to see how pathetic i am.

:: i feel pathetic ::

+ pretty clothes+

Did i tell anyone how much i miss shopping and getting really pretty stuff at a steal?!?!!
OMG... i am so satisfied with my shopping.. and concluded that..
hey.. Bugis and far east plaza is a shopping haven...
despite the crowd.. despite the cluttered shops.. despite the hot hot weather..

my pretty dress number 1 frm FEP..

Cost: $54..

Bought this stretchy belt to go with it!

Cost: $14

my pretty dress number 2 frm bugis street!

Cost: $45

this absolutely retro dress is bought frm ZARA sale. bought for me by my haro darling.

plan to wear it with black stockings.. perfect!

Cost: $42

I also bought a pair of black heels to match these dresses that cost me onli $20!

Bought earrings to go with it too..

me borrowed my mum's pearl necklace for the 2nd dress..

i realise this year .. my theme is simply black and white! I am all ready for CNY!

+fateful rummage+

as i rummaged in my mind... lots of things came back to me..
after a casual conversation that is not directly related at all... it triggered all these back..
lots of memories, events and thoughts came back to me.
all these have made what i am today. it made me a coward.. it made me a whimp. it made me feel so small.
before i know it.. hot tears were running down my cheek. reason.. i do not know.
i duno if i am happy or sad.
but i definitely do have my happy times, sad times and fustrated times.
i ask myself am i satisfied with the life i had.. part of me says yes but the other half says no.
there are so many things i cld have done. so many things i wanted to do and so many things i did.
so many events that still haunt me till today..little do i know until like today i let myself think abt it. y do they all have to happen to me.
if i was not able to put it all behind me and moved on.. it could have ruined me.
so i have to be thankful that i am able to forget things quite easily.
forget how painful it was.
forget how traumatising it was.
forget how frightening it was.
forget how depressing it was.
forget how stupid i was.

i have to keep telling myself.. it was no big deal.
i cannor have let all these successfully destroy me and affect me in anyway.
it is history.. history it is..
nevetheless... i do not blame anyone else but myself.

+ a lovely sunday+

yesterday... my family had a sudden urge to go blading in the morning.. so off we went to east coast beach and rented skates for my sis, dad and me!

my dad cant even stand straight!! hahaha .. oops.. i shldn laugh at my daddy.. but he is hilarious!
he will slip even holding on to the railing.. but hey.. at the end of the day he manage to get over the hump at least. Good job daddy!

den it was street jazz class at the esplanade with penny..
when i 1st step in... the pple there are no beginners.. clad in proper dance attire and stretching with their impressively flexible bodies. i knew i will be embarassed later. penny consoled me by saying :" At least you look like a dancer.."
like that helps.. hahaha.. besides the on off dance session with the gers when i hit the clubs.. i haven attended dance classes since yr 1 in uni... I am rusty..

today i feel the aftermath of all my activities.. i am aching all over!! i need more exercise.. hui needs to lose 3kg and i will reach my ideal weight of 42kg!

:: i feel pain ::

+ tips for a good student +

this is what i got from my mum.. came a little to late.

1. Review Chapter before going to class.
(never ever did that in my entire life as student b4)

2. Dnt skip classes.
(tts wat i always tell myself but...)

3. Be puntual.
(SBS buses are neva on time.. too bad)

4. Remember to bring the related texts to class.
(blardy text and readings are HEAVY k!)

5. Focus.
(cnt do it if there's a cute guy in my lecture.)

6. Practice taking note taking.
(tried but we end up beautifying our notes dnt we?)

7. Dnt be afraid to ask.
(nah.. the lecturer is too engrossed in giving the lecture)

8.Review ur notes after the lesson.
(yea i do that. a week b4 exams.)

9. Do not wait till tommorrow.
( i wait till the very last minute)

10. Be organised.
(i life being organized. but like that helps much)

:: i feel that i have failed as a student ::